:D

death pours down on me

its like rain, you know

its everywhere

i mean, yeah, people are still LIVING

but everyone I know is dead

or gone, which is the same thing if you think about it

dead and gone

something people say a lot

well, not to me at least

always saying

the deceased

passed away

and i tell them,

theyre dead, just say it like it is

and they look at me

really LOOK at me, you know

like im crazy or something!

but im not

im sure im taking it better than all of them

especially when you consider what IVE been through

my only real true love is gone

my only living family is dead

my only dead family is, well, still dead

my teacher mentor friend whatever is dead, too

and

uh

thats about it i think

i dont really know what to do now

go cry in some corner, i guess?

but the tears wont come in any case

ive cried enough, im really starting to get sick of it

really!

everyone expects me to break down and sob in their arms

but come on, i already did that

that was before they all left and got replaced by normal people, though

(the normal people are the ones who say passed away and deceased, by the way)

and im not crying to normal people!

theyre only there for the show and for sympathy and pity

i dont need that

i dont

im fine

really

honest








































oh who am i kidding im not okay

been dreaming the same dreams

as my parents

or parent

whatever

and its

really scary

and i dont

like it

i really

um

i dont like it

but thats the

only reason i

cry anymore because

of the dreams

you

know

theyre scary

and they

have everyone i

love in

them

and they all

uh

die

but thats

fine

i guess

since

you know

they're all

dead

like

rain